I have served three churches since I was 23 as pastor. I have had many struggles and found much difference in language and understanding between me and my older congregations. We have shown love and respect to one another but there remains a disconnect on some deeper level. Again I have loved my churches and the people I have served and they have loved me, my wife and our four children, but a barrier seemed to exist in all 3 churches. I have yet to cross that barrier. but when I start a bar room ministry next week, I hope that I have finally helped a church work with me to reach out on a whole new level.

I graduated seminary last year and I have been in ministry for several years now. I love pastoring. Along with being a husband, father, son, and friend, I know it is why God even bothered to create me in the first place. I love the people I serve. However, I have grown bitter and cold with many people in both churches I have served (even if those in my current church aren't aware of it). I am not sure I am making any difference in their lives and in this world.